Diabetes

Only Immortal for a Limited Time

When we are young
Wandering the face of the earth
Wondering what our dreams might be worth
Learning that we’re only immortal
For a limited time.

-Dreamline by Rush

It was 4 days before my 12th birthday. I had asked for two sandwiches with my lunch instead of one only a week or so prior. I remember coming back from dance class that night and feeling tired. I remember how heavy my body felt as I got out of the car and went to head inside and upstairs to my bedroom. I remember my mom grabbing my arm and guiding me to the kitchen instead.

I remember her telling my brother to get his meter.

The realization of what she wanted to do hit me like a freight train. “No… No!” I struggled but she managed to check my blood glucose. The numbers counted down… I was over 300 mg/dL. I started crying.

In the car ride to the hospital, my mother tried to reassure me that everything would be okay. I stared out the window, my arms crossed, thinking. Thinking that my body is broken. Thinking that I will die young. Thinking that Diabetes will kill me.

I felt my mortality that day. I’ve lived every day feeling it since. It certainly gives you perspective.

This year marks 14 years with Type-1 Diabetes for me. I’ve struggled a lot with this disease. There have been highs and lows, both literally and figuratively. I’ve dealt with a lot. The struggle has made me stronger, wiser, and more understanding. I’m proud of who I am and how I have been shaped.

World Diabetes Day

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3 Comments

  • Reply Christine Røde November 14, 2013 at 3:02 pm

    Good on you for staying strong! For a long time I thought that diabetes was a very harmless disease. I thought the deaths and amputations only happened to people who were careless or stupid. Part of that was the fact that I had a close friend with Type-1, and he always acted like it was no big deal, it wasn’t gonna kill him, don’t worry, it’s just a minor inconvenience.

    Three years ago, diabetes took his life. He was only 20, and suddenly I realized that it *is* a big deal. I have so much admiration for the people who struggle with the disease every day now, and I do what I can to support the cause. Stay strong!

    • Reply Erica November 15, 2013 at 10:05 am

      I’m sorry about your friend. You could do everything right and still things can go wrong. It’s very frustrating. But thank you infinitely for your support. <3

  • Reply Carolynne November 16, 2013 at 8:45 pm

    Wow, 14 years. I can’t even imagine. I admire your strength so much. Diabetes is not an easy disease and it’s something you have to deal with your entire life. I am proud of who you are because of it!

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